So as we have pushed through all the activities of the last month that I mentioned in my last post we have had some great times. We took a mini vacation and went to visit the Newport Aquarium for Roses second birthday. I had awesome weekend in Chicago with my sisters. The Easter Bunny has finished his shopping. The nursery is set up and ready for Mowglis arrival and we finally went and purchased a minivan so we have a vehicle that will fit 3 carseats. Ahhh the past 6 weeks have been busy for sure.
As I have gone through the last 6 weeks checking tasks off the To Do list day by day, I am continuing to be challenged by the series we are studying at church about the Essentials of a close knit family. As I have studied Ephesians 5:21-33 and Proverbs 31:10-31 I have really struggled with my role as a wife and as a mother and honestly evaluating where I am and where God intends me to be. I should say that I have had a “crisis of conscious” at or around the time I have given birth to each of my children. I have always managed to push through it, or rather to justify the choices that I have made as far as career and family are concerned. This time it seems to be different, and I am not sure where God is leading us. I have been employed with the same company for almost 8 years. Its a great company, very stable, excellent benefits, reasonable salary, convenient location, etc, etc, etc. I could go on and on. I just cant find anywhere in the Word that says my first priority should be to build a nice retirement account. I am just not sure that its where I need to be in this season of my life. So… I guess I dont know… I will continue to pray and prepare myself. I am not sure what is in store for the future but I pray I have the wisdom to hear Gods voice and the courage to be obedient and follow.
I do know that in less that 3 weeks little Mowgli will arrive and I will be responsible for another little life of one of Gods children and I take that honor and responsibility very seriously.