Lord help me

After much soul searching, prayer and consideration last night hubby and I decided we will begin homeschooling our oldest daughter next fall.   I know the Lord has placed this on my heart for a long time.  I have come up with every  reason that I couldn’t possibly homeschool, but ultimately I feel that this is what we are being called to do.  I feel certain that this is the best thing for our family and our children at this time.  
We spent the majority of this weekend outside building fence.  I was struck how well behaved and how happy our oldest was all weekend.  I truly believe that we have been rushing her through her childhood.  We rush to get up in the morning, rush to get breakfast and get her to school, where she spends the next 8 hours.  Then she gets off the bus and we rush her through homework, chores, activities, dinner, shower and them rush her off to bed. The majority of the conflict we have in our home either starts or ends with me saying….Hurry up!  I don’t want to rush her to grow up! I want her to be able to linger in whats left of her childish innocence. So while I know its not going to be easy, I am so very excited.   
We have decided not to talk to her about our decision until after the school year is over.  I know she will be thrilled but I don’t want to distract her from the work she needs to finish this year. I am hoping to spend some time with some other local homeschool families and then I need to select a curriculum. I’ll let you know how it goes.

Update :  After attending a homeschool conference in Cincinnati we decided to give Sunshine the Option of  completing the year in public school or starting to homeschool in mid – April.  She was thrilled to start  homeschooling right away.


Things that are precious to me

I found this years ago somewhere, I wish I could remember where, but I printed it and kept it by my desk. On days when I feel overwhelmed, that there is too much to be done, too much to worry about, too much to anticipate, it brings me great comfort to remember what is important and it helps me to refocus.

Things that are precious to me, things that are simple and lovely and good… I am going to focus on those…

  • God’s sweet promises
  • A good morning kiss from my husband
  • The early morning snuggle time with my children
  • The rain on the roof
  • Freshly picked vegetables from the garden
  • Hearing my children pray
  • Seeing kindness from my kids to their siblings or others
  • The strong arms of my husband
  • Snowflakes
  • Beautiful skies painted by God’s own hand
  • Piano Music
  • Laughter
  • Open windows and a gentle breeze
  • Candlelight Church hymns sung acapella
  • Warm soup on a cold and dreary day
  • My husband reading the Bible to our family
  • Homemade gifts
  • Flowers
  • Smiles
  • Hearing, I love you Moma

These things and more are the real and true things, the things to be treasuring… not the material, not the temporal…We trust that through this valley God will be glorified… that He will be lifted up. That He holds us with His Almighty Hand and we can be at peace knowing He will never let us fall.

A Godly Woman

Like most woman, my mother and I have had our share of issues over the years. Today I had the joy of witnesses the strength and power of a godly woman. It has been 16 long days since she drove the 2 1/2 hours to the hospital to have dad admitted for tests. Over the past 2 weeks there have been good days, bad days and down right awful days. Its been 12 days since they took him back to perform the 10 hour procedure, 10 long days since he has spoken, smiled or laughed with us. As deeply as I am hurt and as much as I yearn to have my daddy back, I cannot image the depth of her pain of the intensity of her anquish. But today as I cried on her shoulder before I left to come home for another week, I saw the gentle joy and wisdom of a truely godly woman. Today she spoke not of fear but of all the ways God had placed people, circumstances and timing in place to take care of us. Tonight I was lead to this passage in James and wanted to share it. God is Good.

James 1:2-6
Consider it pure joy my brothers whenever you face trials of many kinds. because you know that the testing of your faith develops perseverance. Perseverance must finish its work so that you may be mature and complete, not lacking in anything. If any of you lacks wisdom, he should ask God, who gives generously to all without finding fault, and it will be given to him. But when he asks, he must believe and not doubt, because he who doubts is like a wave of the sea, blown and tossed by wind.